In all honesty it feels bad to care this much for you considering your recent tragic loss. You have always been a delectable personality, temptress, creature of beauty and so on in a respectable and understanding photographic nature, but now the guard is down somewhat. The respect of you as a beautiful, wonderful, interesting and creative person is always there but now the respect extended to your husband has diminished somewhat due to our loss of him. You are a dynamic beauty and adored by so many. I remain one of them respectfully. I am once again experiencing my own loses as part of trying to comprehend your loss from your perspective. Just human nature to try and do so. Point being you are a wonderful person, beautiful and interesting to say the least You will never be alone. Follow your heart and follow your art. You will never go wrong as long as you stick to your beliefs.